Yeah went to meet Pika and Karine at Rivervale Mall. Had Sakae Sushi. I think i ate like 1/2 of the teriyaki chix don? That's all i had the entire day. No mood no appetite. Gastric's coming again.. Can feel it but dun wanna eat and puke anyway.

Went to Karine's house for a short nap before mj at Irene Chia's fren's place at Punggol Field. Woah.. it's reeeeeaaaaallllyyyyy far! He came to pick me up after the game. Insisted. Y not? Free ride home. He actually had the cheek to suggest go his place watch dvds. In the end came back my place, talked/argued/quarrelled for a bit and my back hurt so wanted to rest. But can't sleep so ended up at his place watch dvds. Yeahyeah.. spineless.

Anyhow i know for a fact he hasn't returned Jamie's keys. He claimed that he wanna return all her stuff tog. True or not doesn't really bother me anymore. Can i ask u guys sthg? Far as I know, guys treat sex.... let's just say uniquely? They can want it w/o any attachment yeah? Let's say this guy's been getting it at least every other day. And yet he seeks another partner so it must mean some form of feelings are involved? Right?

Oh yeah right i haven't told the entire story. It goes like i found out he's still seeing her. Apparantly since Dec she claimed. Which means before I even went to Dubai. So everything's just 1 big fat lie but NooOOoOo he says. Then it hit me that i'm so numb it doesn't really bother me much anymore? Like i'm not pissed nor angry. I'm so disappointed and sad I thought he changed.. for himself. So what kinda r/s is it when ur bf cheats on u and u realise u dun feel anything? What kinda r/s is it when u're an unknowing 3rd party? EeeKksss never thought of it that way till Kristy mentioned it.

I muz add that i'm impressed though. With the amount of time we spent tog, he could actually juggle 2 of us or more. I dunno and I dun wanna know anymore? To me now.. it's just things that he did. We all do things for a reason. Whether it is justifiable or not, be it 'right' or 'wrong', it was a choice we made. As long as we can live with and be RESPONSIBLE for the consequences, that's all there is to it isn't it?

Shall I put up my pic to scare? Haha


Toyota MR Spyder - ON HOLD
Driving license - FAILED! =(
Diving license
Visit bro in Tokyo
Beach holiday (Bali/Phuket)
Orlando Disney
LD package
Zoom!
New wardrobe
Lose 3 kg
Dog
New sport (wakeboard/sailing)
Jap goodies - GOT THEM! Thankies bro!

Are we only allowed 3?? =p


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Cheechee's Musings






Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...