I'm in so much pain and agony it's spiralling. It really is. When i can't keep away i tell myself it's okie as long as i'm happy. But i'm not. I wanna see him every night and when I do I suddenly don't wanna see him anymore. Am I making sense? Not like he cares! I asked him last night how come it seems like i'm the one who did him injustice??

I wanna disappear. Juz physically get him out of my system for a while. Make myself not see or contact him for a period so I can't keep telling myself I can't. I actually thought of seeking hypnotic therapy. Bit dumb isn't it?

Helphelp! I dunno what to do anymore. I can't concentrate on anything. I keep telling myself I've done it before again and again. So why not this time?? Cuz this time it seems like I have nothing left? No job, no friends etc. And it grows much much harder each time. Stop.. this has gotta stop.

Shall I put up my pic to scare? Haha


Toyota MR Spyder - ON HOLD
Driving license - FAILED! =(
Diving license
Visit bro in Tokyo
Beach holiday (Bali/Phuket)
Orlando Disney
LD package
Zoom!
New wardrobe
Lose 3 kg
Dog
New sport (wakeboard/sailing)
Jap goodies - GOT THEM! Thankies bro!

Are we only allowed 3?? =p


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Cheechee's Musings






Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...