Mummy said she hasn't seen me happy for a long while. All she wants is for me to go back to how happy I was in NUS. I never realised it till just now.. when i asked him why me? But all the girls u like are the cutesy, bubbly type, which Cheechee definitely is not.

I dun wanna be so suspicious and cynical and jaded anymore. I wanna be as DITZY as before. I wanna wake up everyday and look forward to it. I wanna see/do/hear things positively. I wanna have a smile for everyone. Not one that comes from practising on countless pax over the 2 yrs. I wanna have sthg nice to say to everyone. I just wanna be enthusiastic about life again.

Let's think about how I can achieve it. For ages I'd always wanted to volunteer. It really breaks my heart to see all those lonely and aged, those young and forsaken. When my life has settled a bit.. when I finally get a job, it's time to do sthg bout it! I should join my fren in her volunteering activities for children. Course I should just check if they want me. Should be lah hor? I can... ermm.. we'll see. I wanna learn sthg new. The last time managed to pick up wakeboarding with Shyan. Pick up only lah.. now no more Shyan (so sad!) maybe should learn a new language. Rope Mummy in to learn with me. Do more baking etc.. and yesh! More mj hahaha.. Exercise a bit more... Pick up tennis and netball again. *Note to self: Do NOT get too tanned.

Yeahyeah sometimes i feel like i'm just SAYING all these. No more! I have ample time now. No more moping around the house waiting for him to call/finish. No more revolving my life or rescheduling my appointments to suit him. No more.

Shall I put up my pic to scare? Haha


Toyota MR Spyder - ON HOLD
Driving license - FAILED! =(
Diving license
Visit bro in Tokyo
Beach holiday (Bali/Phuket)
Orlando Disney
LD package
Zoom!
New wardrobe
Lose 3 kg
Dog
New sport (wakeboard/sailing)
Jap goodies - GOT THEM! Thankies bro!

Are we only allowed 3?? =p


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Cheechee's Musings






Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...