I finally told my family everything. Well not everything everything but enough. Kristy thanks for seeing the doc with me. All friday i was wandering around on my own. Faith was right. Sometimes you just need to do stuff on your own and show yourself that you're capable of it. I went to the Guanyin temple which i haven't gone for ages, Orchard library to borrow books occupy my time. Then met Joann went her cousin's house with mummy.

I'm meeting Faith to go Novena Church later. Apparantly there's this saying that if you go Mass for 9 consecutive Saturdays, your wish will be fulfilled. Sometimes i feel i'm very fickle-minded. You think so? Like what I wanna wish for now and what I wanted to just yesterday morning is different.

Thur night i disgraced myself again. I found out he's been spending every night over at Jaime's. I just asked if they were tog and if so i don't wanna keep popping in on their happiness anymore. I know how that feels and I don't wanna do it to another person. Got fucked big time. Yes i do not have to know anymore, i do not have the right too. To me as long as you're not with me it doesn't matter who you're with but can't u see why i wanna know? It's not rocket science right?

I admit that I was still concerned bout him, sending him smses to take care etc. But yeah what's the point. He's got someone taking care of him now and i should let her do it. Am quite proud of myself for not contacting him anymore. Must earn a bit of dignity back. I went to the temple and got a chiam. It says "A broken mirror of a thousand years comes to shine again" And then the Chinese translation goes "The guy and lady both remarry" but the English translation said "The guy and lady though divorced reunites". I was so confused!! What now??

Jo's cousin gave me quite a bit of advice. Everything she said bout him was so true. Really spot-on. I asked her if he would come back again like he always does but she didn't reply. She said even if he does, I shouldn't take him back anymore. Well i'll just worry about that when it comes right?

Now i should just concentrate on what I wanna do. First, get my license! Second, enquire about my UNLV. Third, see if i can fly again. Fourth, see if i can do some business since daddy offered capital. Ultimately I know my parents love me very much and no matter what they're always on my side. Esp mummy. Feel so bad bout screaming at her at times. Oh.. i forgot to ask Jo's cousin to help me control my temper =p

Apparantly this is a very bad year for "Dogs". And it's not gonna be much better next year. Like i told mummy sometimes i don't know whether to believe in all these. But how could she know so much without me saying anything if it were not true?? Really spot on about all the stuff you know! Haha..

I'm still so astonished.

Shall I put up my pic to scare? Haha


Toyota MR Spyder - ON HOLD
Driving license - FAILED! =(
Diving license
Visit bro in Tokyo
Beach holiday (Bali/Phuket)
Orlando Disney
LD package
Zoom!
New wardrobe
Lose 3 kg
Dog
New sport (wakeboard/sailing)
Jap goodies - GOT THEM! Thankies bro!

Are we only allowed 3?? =p


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Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...