Remember why it is that it doesn't work and don't brood on it again. When you think of him, just come back to this post, read it and remember it.

Remember that:

1) We don't talk. He talks you listen. You don't get to defend yourself even when he's accusing you. You just ask yourself if you can take it. Even if you can now, but for how long? How long before the next outburst?

2) He cheats and lies. He always says he's sorry but it proves that he's a pathological cheater and lier isn't it? Remember the MSN blocking thing. He didn't even say he's sorry for lying. He just justified why he blocked you. Is that the point? He always says he serious and wants to be faithful. Has he ever? Remember he said before you left for Dubai he will wait 1 year for you faithfully. By that time he was already with Jaime. That long walk you guys took when you caved in cos he was so sincere? He was attached too. No more lies. You don't deserve to be lied to. Honesty is what sets you free at the end of the day. How much longer do you wanna live in the constant fear when he doesn't pick up his phone, when his phone rings/beeps, when you can't find him? What if you start flying again?

3) He's never there for you. When you needed someone in Dubai, he was with jaime. When you needed someone to bring you to see doctor, he was never there too. When you needed to talk badly that fateful Thursday about depression did he even listen?

4) You have very different definitions of things. Just simple seeing/dating/being together, going out, planning to go out, ideas about spending time together, opinions about cars, his lecturers etc. He admits he's opinionated but you are not. Most of the time i know you're playing Devil's Advocate or just simply trying to make him see the other side of the story. But is he interested? That is not what he wants. He just wants you to agree with him. Is that what YOU want?

These are not even about someone else or how everyone is against you guys being together. These are inherent problems between you guys as a couple. It's something no one can help with. You can say it's incompatability, character clash, or that really, you guys are just too similar. It just boils down to 1 thing, that you're really unsuited to be together. The sooner you realise this the better.

If you really love him then set him free.

Shall I put up my pic to scare? Haha


Toyota MR Spyder - ON HOLD
Driving license - FAILED! =(
Diving license
Visit bro in Tokyo
Beach holiday (Bali/Phuket)
Orlando Disney
LD package
Zoom!
New wardrobe
Lose 3 kg
Dog
New sport (wakeboard/sailing)
Jap goodies - GOT THEM! Thankies bro!

Are we only allowed 3?? =p


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Cheechee's Musings






Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...