After surpressing the urge to contact him for so long, I wonder how come i just picked up the phone and smsed. Really spur-of-the-moment-totally-without-thinking kind. Arghhhhhh..

I told him how i repeatedly typed and cancelled the msgs, i don't dare to punch in his no haha. Told him to pls pls take care. Immediately after i felt so stoopid and msged Dr Thian. He actually replied! Said he's out studying, miss me, talk to me soon. Then i msg back a whole string of take care stuff. Then felt stoopid again cos should've just left it at that. Then surprisingly he replied again! But it was some WAP message i couldn't get. I called M1, subscribed to this and that just to see the sms. In the meantime i msged him again said i can't see the msg and asked if i can bring Magic out sometime. He said sure let him know when and said he will sms me tomorrow.

Lessons learnt/recalled:

1) Don't ever do things without thinking again.
2) Somehow.. I think it's wrong when you're with someone and u tell someone else u miss them. It's not like I tell Alvin and Shyan i miss them cos they've been my friends for ages. We were once tog lei! But hmm.. a bit contradictory but you know what i mean?? It just seems wrong. And i doubt what he says. I think he miss me like in you miss something which goes missing after a long time tog and not miss as in u want that thing or someone back. =( Am i over-analysing this?
3) Till now he hasn't smsed me. But i'm used to it already. No expectations = no disappointments.


At bout 1am I saw Jaime log in on MSN. Before i can even consider whether should I ask her if she was with him she's offline. There and then I knew she was. So yeah cry and cry again. At how you can be with someone and SAY u miss another person. From this day onwards I will watch how I use the word.

Shall I put up my pic to scare? Haha


Toyota MR Spyder - ON HOLD
Driving license - FAILED! =(
Diving license
Visit bro in Tokyo
Beach holiday (Bali/Phuket)
Orlando Disney
LD package
Zoom!
New wardrobe
Lose 3 kg
Dog
New sport (wakeboard/sailing)
Jap goodies - GOT THEM! Thankies bro!

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Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...